Damage

I'm so lost without you-
Ever since you came into my life,
I do not know what to do.
You were gonna leave, I was so sure.
I am not the one you love anyway;
I kmow there will always be someone else.
But you made me feel something,
different- really different.
Worse than butterflies in my gut,
it seems they flew out to my heart.
Every crash and burn,
I really feel it, it hurts.
Everytime you talk to her,
you remind me I'm not the one.
I feel so hollow-
I really need you , I feel so low.
If I ever get the chance again, 
I would have done anything.
You wouldn't ever be mine, I know.
That kills me, but I've got to accept.

Poem for May 5, 2013.
First time to free verse in my life.